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This week has been spent mostly on psychoactives, since I had only been sober one day. All in all, it was quite fun and all, but I am here mostly to bitch, complain and just spit out whatever's on my mind, and most of the time those are the things that bother me, be they relevant to me directly or not.

First of all, DMH trip report:

Quantity: ~1g per person
Participants: 2

I don't recall the precise time of events, thus some things said may not be in a chronological order, I consider that irrelevant, however.

Pills were quite small, yellow coated, sweet on the outside, but bitter on the inside, leaving a long lasting aftertaste. We downed 10 pills first, waited for about 30-40 minutes and then downed the 10 remaining ones. Since I knew what deliriants are like from my experience with nutmeg in the sense of short-term memory failings and confusion, I wasn't very scared of the drug, even though unpleasant hallucinations were mentioned, I wasn't too scared of those either, since I very seldom hallucinate on drugs, and when I do, it's usually quite mild.

At first there was nothing, then I felt it slowly building up. Friend that took it with me said he didn't have anything, so I suspect it hit him later (but harder for sure).

I cannot say I enjoyed it in a conventional sense, at least not at the time. Deliriants are the kind of drug that make it feel weird and confusing, for some scary, even, whilst it happens (especially first time), but after you're off it, you think of it differently, at least I do. I like the weirdness of it, however, I do understand how it's not for everyone after the experience even more.

I did have some hallucinations, though. I heard sounds (some sort of faint, unintelligible whispers) that I knew for sure weren't supposed to be there, since I was alone in the room, and there was the face-shift one, as I could call it, although that is a rather improper name if I take into account what it was like. I looked at the face of a friend of mine (not the one that took the same drug, another one) and the face seemed quite unfamiliar to me, it looked as a totally different face than that which he had before (I was still sure it was the same person, though), and then it seemed as if it sort of shifted/changed somehow, but it might as well be due to short-term memory not working properly and me forgetting what I had seen before.

I believe the confusion caused by deliriants might be due to the memory failures. You forget things very fast, mid sentence, even. The friend of mine that had tripped with me actually asked me if I know where I am, as if he was talking to someone else. (''Do you know where bear is?'')

Another thing was that, when they all went out to smoke (3 people, all high), I stayed in the room and decided to surf the internet for some info. I ended up trying to look up the same thing on google 5 times, each time forgetting what I wanted to do and ending up dumbly staring into the screen. I also, for short moments, repeatedly, believed I was at home.

Just imagine it, you're sitting at a friends place, in his room, by his computer, and you think you're home. You look left and wonder why it looks different, it wasn't like that before, you look right and you understand you're at friends place. Then, after some time, it happens again. Prior to this I've only had this right after I just woke up at a friends place, thinking I'm home, but as soon as my eyes opened and I confusedly looked around, I understood I wasn't home at all.

I also spent quite a lot of the time staring somewhere with my mouth widely open. I think that might be due to the confusion.

There was one thing ruining this trip for me big time. I felt a heaviness on the left side of my chest, and I thought my heart will stop because of the way it felt.

All in all, compared to me, my friend seemed to have more intense psychoactive effects and seemed to hallucinate more than I did. It might be because I had done nutmeg before (maybe it works on the same receptors), or it might be due to something else, since it seemed to be like that when I did LSD as well.

The drug completely wore off only the next day, since even next day I had dilated pupils and felt somewhat odd.

That is about it on the trip. I'm thinking of trying robodryl (DPH/DMH + DXM), because I have an opportunity to and because they are said to potentiate each others effects.


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Note to self: smoking 2 cigs in a row in a manner when you inhale only smoke, and never air, is bad for you and has made you feel like shit and think that your heart will give out. Don't do it.